Moment of Truth †

     "Sometimes, no matter how much you value that person, he or she doesn't return the same level of compassion for you."

    Been there, done that. At this moment, I just feel like I'm being used to. Like I'm an option. Like my existence was just a round of day and night, would appear now disappear later. This feeling... I just hate it. I feel upset with those people whom I had given the most attention bu then, they make me feel like it was just nothing. I now realize that those people are not worthy of space in my life. Not even worthy of my time, effort, and love. And yes, all those memories start to shatter as I now got the picture that I don't even matter to them at all. Where was I wrong? When all I did was to be there when nobody else was there for them? When I even break the rules, went against my will just to match their kind of thing? It sucks. I can't even hate you. It just makes me realize that all I could hope for a true friend is God and no one else. Not even you. I just feel like, I feel sorry for being far away from Him; from Him whom I got my strength, happiness, and utmost fulfillment in life. 

     You better know that my life seemed to be in wrong road when I befriended you. And by this, I knew what my real mistake is. I trusted you. I trusted you myself,-- my weirdness, my inner bad sides in which you didn't completely accepted. But anyway, thanks for the sheer happy memories and the bonding. Maybe, I'll just go back to the True One who totally loves me, and never leaves me all by myself. He even cultivates goodness in me and that I don't want to abandon. He is the True Best Friend who does not break my heart. I bet He knows how much I love Him, and need Him at this moment. I felt so lost. I just want Him back in my life again. 

Jesus Christ... I love You so much and I'm so sorry for being a naughty child. Make me holy, and pure before You once again.. Thank You for making me realize the truth and for setting me free.. And all I want is for You to stay. Please stay in my life, Jesus. That's my one and only wish.  :')

       

That precious curve on her face ☆

Photo taken on PicCollage and edited at Instagram :)

     Hola! It goes by a saying na "laughter is the best medicine" kaya ang batang maligalig ay narito't nakangiti. Just ignore that little pimple on the right cheeks (kasiii, buwanang dalaw ko ngayong week, hahaha). Syempre minsan, dahil girl ka, matatanong mo sa sarili mo kung pretty ka nga ba talaga. There'd come a time na ma-iinsecure ka sa mga naglipanang chiks sa paligid mo. Some would say na ang "beauty is in the inside, not on the outside". True to that kasi kahit anong ganda ng isang tao sa panlabas,kung pangit naman ang ugali ay useless din. In my view nga, kapag palamura ang isang babae, nakakabawas para sa akin yung impression ko na maganda sila. Kahit naman ako, sinisikap ko na maging good at all times para naman magmatch yung features ko sa ugali ko. Hehehe! Hindi naman sa nagffeeling pero wala namang nilikha si God na 'pangit'. At kung yung term lang naman din ang idedefine, for me, nakadirekta iyon sa attitude ng isang tao. At dahil anak na ako ni Lord, I keep on instilling positive traits in me because I want to be worthy as masterpiece of all His creations. And so, ayan ang story behind that 'precious curve on face' which I call, the perfect smile. 

Keep on smiling pips! :) :) :)